Updated links and Instructions

I became aware it was difficult to download the ebook. This will be instructions on how to download and how to read any book online for future reference. The ebook could be downloaded from here.

You could choose from Barnes & Noble, Kobo, 24 Symbols, Angus & Robertson, and Apple in the near future. Clicking on the link above will take you to a site where you choose from which store you prefer to download for free.

Iphone Instruction

If you have an iPhone open Itunes and download Ibooks. Ibooks allow you to read any book from online sources to thousands of books from the apple store. On itune store it will say download book. From online sources such as https://www.gutenberg.org/

You search for a book and download epub or pdf file and you could open the book in Ibooks. There are thousands of books in gutenberg project that are free. In this sense Ibooks is very flexible.

Android Instructions

If you have android you could download EbookDroid and my personal favorite Amazon Kindle. You could also download amazon kindle with iPhone. Open Google play and download ether EbookDroid and Amazon Kindle which will allow you to read most books. It just comes to preference.

To download my Free Erotica book click here and choose the best store you prefer.

Breaking Point Release

 

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Breaking Point Release

I publish late due to some unforeseen problems. I apologize to the European followers as I know it’s late in Europe. Remember when reading the free book there is fantasy added to real life events and a shorten version due to not wanting to extend the book to long. The download link is right under, if you have any questions about my reasons for writing the book click on breaking point one. The download link is breaking point download. If you enjoy the book leave a review and I will appreciate any suggestions. Thank You.

reference

Breaking Point One

Breaking Point Download

 

Breaking Point Release – Saturday Free

Ebook – Author Forewords

I apologize for my absence and the delay on the free Erotica ebook. I wasn’t certain if I wanted individuals to know about my own sexual life which delayed me publishing the ebook world wide. Nonetheless individuals kept asking when was the due date. This saturday I’ll make certain it is free which you could get it here.

I appreciate the help from the graphic designer which I believe did a great job. The two editors which corrected my bad english grammar. The people who kept asking me and has shown interest on what actually happens behind the scenes.

About The Book

If you follow my blog or know me in  person you would understand. This isn’t in any way boasting about my sexual life. I love intercourse but I respect the women who spend precious moments and reveal their intimate selves which few get to see.  believe when you get to see the deeper aspects of individuals. It is something  precious that I consider an honor to see,feel, and experience. The book is written in consensus about who I wrote about.

The first story is written about a women who change my perspective that has enduring effects till this day. Moments, memories, and intimate conversations that I have grown fond of remembering. Truthfully the book was inspired by her when we first started to speak. She read my simple writings and corrected them but her motivational words is what started the book before I made her aware it was about her. Energetic, open-minded, ambitious, very social, kind, caring, understanding, emotional at times, conservative, and very open-hearted. I believe what I miss the most is communicating with her.  Coming from how I use to live my life; honestly she will hold a special spot in my mind that I will cherish.

Second story is about two women who I met because of a friend from middle school. My friend always encourage me to date the younger friend which was his sister friend. Both actually encourage this all thru middle school till I was an adult. When I became an adult I stop seeing my old friend and didn’t hear from him till the younger girl was becoming 18. Having a good relationship with all three it was a happy reunion.  Both women are energetic and very alluring in their own right. I always cared for them and tried to look out for them when possible. The younger girl had always had a crush on me which became relevant during the night at the party. Finding out the older friend found me enticing it turn into a night which I won’t forget.

Last words. I believe this will be the only book I will write. Sexuality is great and I dearly hope you are enjoying yourself.

Los Infieles (The Affair)-2

Seconds hours so many days, you know what you want but how much can you wait? Every moment lasts forever..what if you lost your way. What if your chances are already gone? I started believing I could be wrong, but you gave me one good reason… to fight and not walk away.

If every step you take is climbing a mountain, tired of fighting, but you know it within yourself to not give up. We all have those moment where you almost thought you quit. Dig deeper, push and break every rule because what you desire is worth every mountain.

Give it all up I will give you a hand when you fall. There aren’t no boundaries; I see your insecurities, the depth of your yearning soul, basking in emotional turmoil. The hand is there; look upon the far skies to the sun radiating waiting for you.

As I first laid eyes on you I seen the potential; hold on tightly for the ride. Hypnotized by who you are a passion ruptured between us. Stroke time very well because it could be your last. Smile at every venture as the adventure last as long as you jump. No point not to follow the earnest heart seeking more.

It is amazing as the lures to take it all off. Are you ready to endure the task at hand? You sought what you deeply yearn for, why repeat and sleep with the enemy. If it was a sinful act it felt amazing without any remorse. 

They wouldn’t understand if we explained. Take it off as we aspire to wake up in the morning with one another. Be careful not to let the neighbors know, are partners, let are secret stay in the hotel. Take your time the sensual feeling you feel is the taboo of the act we are doing, aren’t we bad. 

Let this temptation fill your heart as we are devilish. Love flow as water moves smoothly; whisper your ideas as we ravish are souls. Let your eyes radiate as a smile unfolds. Tell him the lies you tell him which you undress slowly maneveruing yourself slowly into my embrace; if we commit is because we venture towards bliss.

We shall be forgiven if this sinful, how can it feel so great? Whisper my name, cry out of joy, don’t say anything. Remember euphoria moment which we both were sentence to hell? Fuck it. Let’s love one another in secret; blossom in your delight as we became the narcotic which we got addicted too. 

I’ll take the time too caress the delicacy of your skin. Be my aphrodisiac as I ravish the intensity of this depth yearning; take your time undressing as I admire the exquisiteness you are. The heart calls upon forth to feel the frenzy of your love. I desire to wake up with such excstatic sensation you felt from earnest determination. Naughty and nasty, heavy breathing, we are doing this; we are reminded. Too express this yearning with words doesn’t come close to the raw unison are bodies feel. 
– Dedicated too the women I wrote about in Sexual Affair, we got together and collaborated with her story and my erotica writing. 

             SONGS THAT INSPIRE

No Boundaries 
Los Infieles

The Affair 

Meeting a rather aluring women who name would be Amanda to conceal her identity told me a rather interesting story. Amanda is 37 years old now in her second marriage. She married at the age of 26 with her boyfriend who she been with six years, married for eight and divorced at 35. With her permission she wanted me to write about this in a poetic sense which might be difficult but with her help she aided me to possibly help other women who might be in the same situation. 

During lonely nights my heart waits patiently to see if you stir an eye towards me. The abyss seeing your self sink into alcohol, smoking, no sense of direction has led me endlessly questioning the nature about us. As the sun rises so shall the moon rise, as the birds chirp, so shall my endless nights of despair cringe me to be my utter worst nemesis. The thought of you seeking pleasure of my body has me feeling numb. 

I have betrayed the foundation I have built to build heaven instead of purgatory. His intensity driving my soul to flourish as he deliberaltely punishes my body as I ache for his wrath of desire I earnestly seek. Boundaries once I never would cross have been ripped apart Under his careful gaze. His eyes pierce to my very soul as he guides me to bliss which I have not felt for years. The wrath of his passion I soak up desperately has become a narcotic which I grew addicted to.

I fought to not fall, he picked me up as I left solidto to embrace an ache which couldn’t be fulfilled with you. As his words pierce my heart, the persistence in his eyes determined to fufill his heart felt desires; I know I am his Aphrodite which he admires. The thrill to be happy once again is an aphrodisiac which he utterly is committed to be. 

Lonely nights have been replaced with his presence. His careful intense gaze drives me to madness without a single word. I loved you once; the flame extinguished. On the other side my inner goddess was awaken; as I let out my bliss every single night into the air. The audacity, confidence, has me mersmrised as I am pushed to scream of extradionary euphoria. 
Amanda is speaking about her ex-husband and her present husband. The difference in how she felt internally during her first marriage and her present one. She was involved in affair before divorcing her husband at the time; rather felt guilty she has learned to see it as a blessing is disguise. Not necessarily saying to be unfaithful, but at times certain individuals enter are lives for particular reasons. 

Masturbation Bad For Women?

In recent history “hysteria” was used to reference a women who was irrational to the point that only orgasm would alleviate her from the disease which comes natural to a women sexuality? “The term “Hysteria” comes from a Greek word meaning simply ‘that which proceeds from the uterus’.” Yes I found this rather fascinating how an orgasm could alleviate a women from a disease.

In essence till the 1900’s this was the perspective for 2,500 years on hysteria (Women Sexuality). ” Hysteria was a set of symptoms that varied greatly between individuals (and their physicians), including but not limited to fainting (syncope), edema or hyperaemia ( congestion caused by fluid retention, either localized or general), nervousness, insomnia, sensations of heaviness in the abdomen, muscle spasms, shortness of breath, loss of appetite for food or for sex with the approved male partner, and sometimes a tendency to cause trouble for others, particularly members of the patient’s immediate family. The disorder was thought to be a consequence of lack of sufficient sexual intercourse, deficiency of sexual gratification, or both. Physicians committed to the androcentric model of sexuality were inclined to conflate these two etiologies and to prescribe treatment accordingly.” I find it rather intriguing how low sexual gratification could lead a women to have hysteria. How women behave rather “Irrational”, while hysteria was only curable with a partner not just by yourself.

Apparently Hysteria has been a rather huge deal in the medical field for sometime. ” Hysteria appears in the medical corpus as early as 2000 B.C. In Egypt, but it was not until the time of Hippocrates in the fifth century B.CC that the western clinical definition of the disorder began to take shape. In the Hippocratic corpus, hysteria is a disease of the womb, treatable with exercise and massage. Plato’s reference to hysteria as a disease caused by the uterus,  “an animal inside an animal,” is well-known. By the time of Celsus and Soranus in the first century A.D., genital massage and exercise, usually passive, were standard prescriptions for hysteria. Soranus advocated manipulating the groin and pubic area.” A rather interesting insight in the fact of stimulating the vagina and clitoris would be advocated by the individuals mentioned above to cure hysteria. ” Aretaeus Cappodox, writing a century later on mania as a chronic disease, discusses the cause of ailment, asserting that “women… become affected with mania from want of purgation of the system, when the uterus has attained its full development.” It has to be understandable this was the perspective a long time ago, but has anything really changed?

Not to mentioned if you are more indulgent of sexual gratification of the senses you are more likely to catch hysteria more frequently. ” Galen ( ca. A.D. 129-200), the physician’s physician for centuries after his death, described hysteria as a uterine  disease caused by sexual deprivation, to which passionate women were particularly susceptible. This theme of female sexuality as pathology was to reappear in various forms in later centuries. He describes in detail a genital massage therapy, resulting in contractions and the release of fluid from the vagina, after which the patient was relieved of her symptoms. His account is literally the classic description of massage therapy for hysteria, which was to be repeated almost verbatim in later texts and to be regarded as therapeutic gospel in some medical circles until the end of the nineteenth century.”

It makes one wonder if women sexuality has been repressed for fear of what actually lie within thru all this centuries. Then off course masturbation was rather a great way to relieve hysteria, that women ‘needed’ someone else to help. ” Marriage was the best remedy, but if all else failed, masturbation to orgasm was indicated: “According to Avicenna the cure was efficacious only if the sensations of coitus that is, pleasure and pain, were felt. Medieval doctors generally omitted to refer to this aspect of the treatment when recommending recourse to manipulation; yet it was evident that the female sexual discharge accompanied orgasm.” One might infer from this passage that Avicenna or his colleagues might have occasionally advocated masturbation by the woman herself. This is not the case.  In the ‘Canon’ he warns of women’s resorting to “rubbing, among other women” as a possible consequence of unsatisfying intercourse; it is clearly not intended as advice on recommended practice for women. The privilege (or drudgery) of such “rubbing” was reserved for husbands, doctors, and midwives.”

If you are not aware until recently women have more freedom and honestly deserve it after much subjugation from society as a whole. Before marriage was apparently the one of the few cures for this disease ” Nor should you wonder at all these things which are natural to women, and are particularly to be expected of the condition of virgins; because of retention of the sexual fluid, the heart and surrounding areas are enveloped in a morbid and moist exudation: this is especially true of the more lascivious females, inclined to venery, passionate women who are most eager to experience physical pleasure; if she is of this type she cannot ever be relieved by any aid except that of her parents, who are advised to find her a husband. Having done so, the man’s strong and vigorous intercourse alleviated the frenzy. She married an energetic young man, who, having discharged his martial responsibilities with vigor, she took to this with enthusiasm; under the appropriate treatment she flourished, revived, bloomed with the rosy shade of well-bein, and was entirely restored to health.”

It isn’t the first time I incounter this form of thinking which I find it hard to understand at times but I am aware that it is individuals perspectives. There isn’t anything wrong with masturbation; unless you off course over do it and condition yourself to only receive that form of climax; which is fine if you desire that. The same with pornography you essentially condition oneself to orgasm with the help of ponography so when the time comes to have actual intercourse it will be not as exciting or rather difficult to participtate in intercourse itself. I still believe women sexuality has been rather suffocated or treated as a crime when it’s rather sensual, fluid, very admirable. If as a society we let women sexuality flourish it would be a rather more healthy society as a whole instead of having fear, human race we would have more secure women that feel home within their own bodies.

reference

Rachel P. Maines.(1999).The Technology Of Orgasm:University Press

History Of The Vibrator

We understand that women sexuality is rather misunderstood also has been apparently misguided for centuries. Until recently masturbation was considered wrong or an unhealthful act for women to reach bliss. Let’s dive a little into how women orgasms has been misunderstood as well as the medical industry this was profitable.

Let’s look into how women orgasms was an extra income for physicians. “Western medicine, described a medical treatment for a complaint that is no longer defined as a disease but that from at the least the fourth century B.C until the American Psychiatric Association dropped the term in 1952, was known as mainly as hysteria. This purported disease and its sister ailments displayed a symptomatology consistent with the normal functioning of female sexuality, for which relief, not surprisingly, was obtained through orgasm, either through intercourse in the marriage bed or by means of massage on the physician’s table.” Essentially due to the fact that most women can’t just orgasm thru penetration alone they required stimulation on the clitoris which is how the vibrator and other instruments were made to help physicians help women dilemma of being unsatisfied.

The vibrator to help with women hysteria (Sexuality) to help reach orgasm. “When the vibrator emerged as an electromechanical medical instrument at the end of the nineteenth century, it evolved from previous massage technologies in response to demand from physicians for more rapid and efficient physical therapies particularly for hysteria. Massage to orgasm of female patients was a staple of medical practice among some(But certainly not all) Western physicians from the time of Hippocrates until the 1920s, and mechanized this task significantly increased the number of patients a doctor could treat in a working day.”  Yes essentially vibrators were primarily made to help women achieve orgasm with the help of doctors.

Another interesting is how not being able to achieve orgasm for women was considered an illness. “Because the androcentric model of sexuality was thought necessary to the pro-natal and patriarchal institution of marriage and had been defended and justified by leaders of the western medical establishment in all centuries at least since the time of Hippocrates, marriage did not always “cure” the “disease” represented by the ordinary and uncomfortably persistent functioning of women sexuality outside the dominant sexual paradigm. This relegated the task of relieving the symptoms of female arousal to medical treatment, which defined female orgasm under clinical conditions as the crisis of an illness, the “hysterical paroxysm. In effect, doctors inherited the task of producing orgasm in women because it was a job nobody else wanted.” Not certain how an individual wouldn’t desire to help a partner reach bliss, rather sad how it is considered a job.

The main points is are how the vibrator came into the market; to cure a disease which was just having an orgasm to cure a women from ‘hysteria’. Also it makes me wonder if in the past till now how many individuals don’t pay attention to the clitoris which has thousands of nerves past superior to anything within the human body. Also how intercourse alone doesn’t necessarily mean women will have an all everlasting orgasm.

reference

Rachel P. Maines.(1999).The Technology Of Orgasm:University Press

Sexuality Pedistal

Take a little moment within your precious life to join me in this trip. Wether you are a mistress,single, in a relationship, open-relationship, friend with benefits, “friends”, sugar daddy, sugar mama, cheating, maybe seeing your e.x, or thinking about them, having fantasies, married, widow. Etc.

Imagine feeling the smooth texture of their skin. Mesmerized by the intoxicating smell of them. Words don’t describe or come close to the cosmic union that intensifies with seconds that past. Lips engulfing both of us within a bubble of passion and heat as a marathon of sweat drips from the exhaustion of are bodies; movements that don’t know the limitations of the human body. Depth of this carnal feeling isn’t something that time erases, but harnesses the yearning to a greater degree. Roughness as your body explodes from the hunger which I desperately have inhibit. Releasing desire which has you addicted to me; it’s an intoxication which only you can cure with the medicine are earnestly seek. I will be the doctor as you are my patient, I’ll prescribe the right prescription. 

Regardless of who you are (Women,Male, in- between) enjoy your sexuality. With yourself or the luxury of enjoying someone else. 

                               

Sexual Drive

For variety of reasons a person sexual drive or desire could lessen do to time or just stress. One of the problems common for sex therapist is that a person loses sexual interest in their partner. Many theories and evidence suggest that this could just be a biological reasons; I have been curious why the feeling goes away. For personal reasons I have had seizures and strokes, concussions (Football) which effect (Pre-frontal cortex, hippocampus, amygdala, etc. Essentially personally it was rather difficult for me to feel the emotional drive; within that context I understand individuals who lose interest but for me it wasn’t a choice. (Yes it sucks not feeling much)

Me being very intrigued in intercourse and psychology I was aware that damage to the brain can alter behavior as well as hormonal change. I am not to incline to medicine which has a million side effects. About three years ago I became aware of this man named Markus Rothkranz from a reference which was showing me a new type of diet. For some odd reason I didn’t do the diet untill recently, which I should of been doing. Essentially the diet consists of just fruit and vegetables but blended in a Vitamix so everything is broken down. This breaks down the exterior walls of the plants which lets it release the actual nutrients that vegans aren’t getting because their stomach acid is too weak to break down the walls of the plants. You could only do this in a vitamix because the other blenders won’t shred everything apart, I have tried it before.

Most of the plants I get are “Wild” not from the store but around the neighborhood. I live in a diverse location which is splendid for me. This is the plants that now I take daily and have boosted Mental alertness,body mass, stamina,sexual drive, energy, mood,etc (Within 2 weeks)

Saw Palmetto – This is what is put in Viagra; you could just pick it off blend it in a vitamix and drink it. You want to feel sexual drive? Take This! This is what I am thinking if individuals take this and other plants for sexual drive wouldn’t they already feel it? I believe it is better than lying to people about taking placebo pills.

Aloe Vera – This is god gift. Too many great things

Rosemary – Great for memory and brain function

Barley Grass – Has natural steroids and helps burns energy slower.

Cactus

Grass

Sage – Helps with brain function and cure many diseases that aren’t “Cure able”

Gotu Kola – This is for intelligence and making you feel young. Helps the brain in so many ways.

Dandelion – Is considered a weed, but wow this alone has so many vitamins!

 

Expanded Orgasm – 2

I suggest to refer to the first post for instructions on how to follow the “Breath of Fire”. Be aware that as an individual always keep expanding in every aspect of one own life; you never stop learning and expanding.

The Breathe Of Fire

“The breath of fire is a Kundalini yoga technique. It is a powerfully energizing breath that gets the little neurons in your brain humming as it clears your lungs and cleanses your blood. The breath of fire is aptly named. I usually feel a lot of heat spreading out from the center of my body when I do this breath. This rapid, continuous breath is done entirely through the nose. It can be done in any position, but it’s best learned standing or sitting up with a straight spine. The emphasis of this breath is on the exhale.” I personally enjoy this breath more than the others; while jogging this could really wake you up.

  1. “Exhale. As you exhale, push the air out by rapidly pulling your navel to your spine.”
  2. “To inhale, simply release your navel outward. The breath fills your lungs automatically.”
  3. Put your hand on your diaphragm to focus your attention there and to feel the power of this breathe.”
  4. “Begin with one breath every two seconds; work up to one or two breaths per second.”

Requires a little practice, but I could honestly say it is worth it. The only conflicting part is to consciously do it while having intercourse.

The Heart Breath

  1. “Yawn. Feel how the yawn opens the back of your throat and stretches out your whole mouth and face? That’s the feeling of the openness you want when you do the heart breath.”
  2. “Breath. Let your mouth fall open slightly. Relax your jaw and face, open the back of your throat, and breath in through your mouth, gently but fully.”
  3. “Exhale. Don’t push the breath out; just let it fall out with a gentle little sigh,ahh.”
  4. “Take in a much air as you can, as effortlessly as you can, then let it go.”

Practice the breath till you get remember them and incorporate them into intercourse or masturbation and feel the difference. Remember it does not have to be perfect; just jump in and do it.

reference

Carrellas, Barbara. Urban Tantra: Sacred Sex for the Twenty-first Century. Celestial Arts, 2007

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