Ebook – Author Forewords
I apologize for my absence and the delay on the free Erotica ebook. I wasn’t certain if I wanted individuals to know about my own sexual life which delayed me publishing the ebook world wide. Nonetheless individuals kept asking when was the due date. This saturday I’ll make certain it is free which you could get it here.
I appreciate the help from the graphic designer which I believe did a great job. The two editors which corrected my bad english grammar. The people who kept asking me and has shown interest on what actually happens behind the scenes.
About The Book
If you follow my blog or know me in person you would understand. This isn’t in any way boasting about my sexual life. I love intercourse but I respect the women who spend precious moments and reveal their intimate selves which few get to see. believe when you get to see the deeper aspects of individuals. It is something precious that I consider an honor to see,feel, and experience. The book is written in consensus about who I wrote about.
The first story is written about a women who change my perspective that has enduring effects till this day. Moments, memories, and intimate conversations that I have grown fond of remembering. Truthfully the book was inspired by her when we first started to speak. She read my simple writings and corrected them but her motivational words is what started the book before I made her aware it was about her. Energetic, open-minded, ambitious, very social, kind, caring, understanding, emotional at times, conservative, and very open-hearted. I believe what I miss the most is communicating with her. Coming from how I use to live my life; honestly she will hold a special spot in my mind that I will cherish.
Second story is about two women who I met because of a friend from middle school. My friend always encourage me to date the younger friend which was his sister friend. Both actually encourage this all thru middle school till I was an adult. When I became an adult I stop seeing my old friend and didn’t hear from him till the younger girl was becoming 18. Having a good relationship with all three it was a happy reunion. Both women are energetic and very alluring in their own right. I always cared for them and tried to look out for them when possible. The younger girl had always had a crush on me which became relevant during the night at the party. Finding out the older friend found me enticing it turn into a night which I won’t forget.
Last words. I believe this will be the only book I will write. Sexuality is great and I dearly hope you are enjoying yourself.
If you apply this concept into life I believe it could make it more interesting. One of my first teachers sent me a link to a video in which it explains how some individuals see life as something that happen and passed by like if it was just yesterday. I believe that is a sad way to live with no goal or no direction. The link will be at the bottom and you could check it out.
I am aware people love to live day-to-day and not always worry about tomorrow and that is fine everyone has their own structure. The problem I see with this is that it becomes a routine and we stop pushing to see new opportunities. This within itself could become a self fulfilling destiny because are habits do become are destiny.
Don’t forget to push yourself towards something new and drive towards novelty because it will bring upon a new experience. Make a new business, go against social norms(I love this one), do the opposite of what people do, make a new habit, challenge yourself to have sex for two hours, write a book, if something makes sense do the opposite, forget common sense, you want another individual then go for it! Forget social norms; be a daredevil, a pathfinder, carve your own path, what am saying is live life-like it’s an adventure and don’t stop in the familiar. Yes it could be scary, but once you accept everyone is going to die it just a matter of how you want to look back and see what you have accomplished.
Link To Video
It came to my attention that a friend had her images displayed because she left her boyfriend; which within itself is cowardly from his side. I will be writing about this within a story that happen about a year or so ago I remember being in an upscale condo in Sacramento with Allisa. If you read “The Power of Desire” I mentioned who she is. I am grateful for meeting her and the connections which I undoubtedly owe her more than words could suffice.
I remember looking out onto the bay as she laid asleep as I contemplated many things and Allisa came up repeatedly, how vulnerable she became with me even thought she is thirty years older than me. During my night stay I became aware she has multiple companies and is very confident within herself. I notice the humbleness which she displayed without reserve. Being brought up in San Fransisco her family didn’t have much which made her strive to be very successful. She accomplished the “American dream”, but wasn’t satisfied with having money. Now she owns multiple privately owned charities which she gives back in many ways. I was captivated by how caring she could be, but I knew she didn’t tolerate dishonesty by the way she spoke about honesty. As her walls came down little by little because I figured we would only see one another that night so I thought; she told me about family, relationships, insecurities, business, friends, love, things she detested, views on feminist ideals and things that shocked me. I didn’t expect for a women who I perceived as very confident show this many insecurities inside.
As I questioned and discussed many things throughout the night I learn to appreciate the little moments in which you share with someone even if it’s limited at times. When someone gives themselves to you so to speak it is something that is special. When seeing someone flaws and positive traits getting a more concrete image of a person and seeing the more authentic side underneath I believe is something not everyone shares with just anyone. Physically being with someone and them having trust that they will be safe with you I believe is a compliment and it’s something that is admirable. The moments you share blissfully with a person when time seizes to exist because all you perceive is one another; that is worthwhile and cherished in my perspective.
I could honestly say I detest when someone exposes another person because they are hurt. I understand the feeling, but that doesn’t justify the emotional weight you put on the other person for reviling things that some individuals consider very private. It’s really unfair that if a person gave themselves to you for that period of time and you use it against them. If the individual trusted you that much to send or let you take images of them; that within itself should be sacred and respected.
The Power Of Desire
Three years ago I met this women called Daisy at subway on Vermont and Sunset. At that point it was my destination every other day to go work there. Oddly she came back into my life now but I didn’t see her the same as before. When I first seen her eating a tuna sandwich she seemed rather sad and in agony. I spoke to her if I could join and smiled to cheer her day up. I felt her sadness and I couldn’t help but wonder why would she be sad. Her blond hair fell to her shoulder width and pink small lips formed a sad smile, her blue eyes showing sadness even tears forming. I spoke to her softly to ease her tension, and told her that this is a new beginning for her. She smiled and laughed. Her eyes glowed with happiness which I thought was good because life is pleasant. As we spoke she started to tell me what is going on.
Daisy was twenty-four at the time and had broken up with her abusive boyfriend who she was for Twelve years. Yes I was surprised she was with him since middle school, at the time we spoke. They had broken up two months prior and I could tell the effects were still strong at that point. She was studying art and drew very well which captivated my interest. She was failing miserably in school because her life was more dedicated to her e.x at that point. I started to guide her to be more focus on herself and finish school because she has so much talent; I didn’t want to see that go to waste. Her ambitious were grand and I pushed her to see the confidence I seen in her.
Two months after meeting her I started an open relationship with her, being very brittle she started to smile more and became very caring. Being really attractive she started to turn heads and radiated this exuberance of happiness. At that point being only with one partner her whole life she was ready to bloom; ripe for spring so too speak. As her sexuality expanded she became more feminine and her body language/self-confidence just grew. Five months later her e.x contacted her and I became aware because I believe in honesty is mutual. I notice her internal turmoil and consolidated her, but always let her do as she desires. I warned her what would happen if she went back with him; I knew she desired a relationship. Eventually she started with him again and I let her be.
Three years into the future she is twenty-seven and I am twenty-two. We met up as she contacted me. I was intrigued what happen to her after such a long time; apparently he became abusive again she left school and I was astounded but felt empathy towards her. He cheated on her and left her when I think she is really attractive and has such a great personality if you see inside her walls. I was infuriated but then again its a choice she made. At the end I kept her as a friend because I respect her and had a good connection with her. I doubt I’ll ever seek out more, at times is good to give out an open hand to help someone in need. At times it’s financial other times is emotional and that is something that money can’t buy.
I wrote this with her permission; I don’t write about individuals without their consent.
Today I finally got to see my business mentor; he left to France and came back and left again. He off course is vastly different from my other mentor but both have achieved great thing’s in their own perspective. Being In DockWeiler Beach today in the morning it is rather windy and very warm and sunny as we walked down the long bike route. I appreciate his calmness and politeness as he is fifty years old now. His perspective shows me how vastly people see things in life and how we choose are own beliefs.
How are you he asked? I am fine and feeling well now. How is everything regarding business and relationships. They are great and getting better, how about intimate. I smiled and said they are looking up. We were both in suits and the warm weather was not helping. You have much wisdom to offer me; what do you think about love and intercourse? I don’t think you have asked me that before, what is wrong? I was off course sincere, but I am asking to broaden my perspective. As he stopped I stopped and he turned towards the beach and spoke gently and softly.
What do you see when you look into the water? I see depth and wisdom and much that has not been explored. Now imagine women as water, fluid, dancing, energy that doesn’t stop flowing. Always changing; at times warm at other times cold. At times the water moves rapidly and other times it moves slow and gentle. You can’t contain an ocean in a cup; you just guide and nourish it and when it needs direction you move it in that direction. Be the wind that moves the water and gently guide it; not the boat that just goes thru it. As I felt the wind against my skin and the heavy jacket on my shoulders; I understood what he was saying.
I am aware that me and your other mentor have different perspectives on this; did you follow your deepest heart-felt truth? Yes I did, then there is nothing else to do son. Doing what you desire and following your truth in this life is what makes you grow the fastest. I believe you know everything is interconnected; things don’t happen by chance. I know but at times I like to believe am guiding things. Then Can you explain somethings that have happen in the last few years? Not everything. Then remember just because the current of the ocean is going another way doesn’t mean it won’t come back towards you.
Be patient, be understanding, and don’t be afraid to let yourself go. You have much wisdom it makes me wonder how I could grow faster. He smiled take your time and enjoy the moment. You understand that you shared something deeply with someone; yes. Was the moments worth everything? Yes. Did you grow? Yes. What else you want? Communication. You know what words are? Yes a form of medium to transmit information. Yes I am also aware that words are meaningless; I at times had a hard time to find the words to express something that wasn’t expressible thru words. I believe the eyes showed everything that needed to be said; then she knows son.
I was aware my dating mentor would only be here for a week so I asked him to join me yesterday in Griffith park for a hike. It was essentially his last day being here in the United States so why not ask. We met up at Griffith Park around 8AM and started are jog/hike to the top. Even thought he is forty something I could tell he is in better shape than me. As we moved upward he told me I was thinking about what you told me. I think you are moving too slow and not going fast enough. I looked at him seriously and he stopped, I asked him what is the best wisdom you would give me then. He thought for a second and told me you have to know what you want and take it.
As we ascended Griffith Park I thought about what he said; is nothing new I haven’t heard. You’re holing back to much, let go and take what you really want. Not what you think you can get but what you really want. You should take more risk’s and put your heart out there and go a hundred percent. Specially in business Alex; you can’t play around you have to go much more deeper. You have done much but that isn’t in off you have to really let go and burn everything so you don’t have no return. This is actually the first time I seen him get serious, he actually tends to be calm and has this high energy. I understand where you’re at; we all been there. Like there isn’t just one right path when it comes to business; you have to be you and just go get it. I have and it isn’t like I haven’t done what I had to do, but I agree I could go deeper.
Let’s try something I have tried with my own mentor like ten years ago. Let’s say you are mentoring me. I laughed you are basically twenty years older than me, yes but that’s not the point. The point is let’s say I am in your shoes and you are where you dream your life to be. Essentially like the bigger picture where you will be going. Okay. What will you tell me to do if you were already there. From Business to relationships. As I thought deeply I figured well first simplify your life to the most minimal. You don’t need the old car let it go, any junk you don’t need let it go or throw it away. Secondly find something you have a high interest in or passionate about. Find a way to market that and learn from other people who are doing the same thing. Eat healthier and stop eating fast food and just smile to smile. You are still alive and that within it self is worth living for. Relationships well if you are with someone and you told them what are your plans and they stay be grateful you have someone supportive. I believe relationships are there to help you grow and motivate you to be better not to settle and let life pass you.
Think about life in this sense; what would you be doing if you could be doing anything right now if not; if it was your last day here what would you do? He looked at me and said then what is the problem? I was rather confused but then understood, a mentor is there to push you not kid you around. Any successful person has a mentor; at times we can’t see are own blind spots. He told me go get what you want, I don’t care what it is or what it isn’t. If your heart say’s yes I desire then move without hesitation. Like I said anything it is just go and get it, As I stared at him I told him I already do that. No you don’t you are holding back. Did you just not hold back? I was getting irritated but yes I did just hold back. He smiled, believe me I have my own mentors who are further than me and I get lectured. You just have to keep growing daily and stay focus; that’s honestly all it is. We laughed and it just made me wonder how far can a person really go?
I am part of organization in which I am lucky to be part off, I was introduced by a women who is part of the organization and today I had a meeting which I didn’t need to attend too but I decided too. I was promoted recently to higher position and had a say about what ideas to follow. I am aware that within the organization there is a lot of human right projects and many projects to help out children in third world countries. As being promoted I was called upon to the front and speak out an idea which could help better improve this world.
Speaking affront of three hundred people I was feeling a little nervous, but I was thinking to myself do you still got this? I thought what could be something that has never been said before and could improve the world even if its minor? I said animals, a man spoke up and said what about animals? Animals are beings put down all across the United States daily because we need more room and have ” Little resources”. I believe we could find another way and measurement and save animals. It isn’t fair that animals are being put down in such way; they are beings and understand. If you look at an animal being put down you see sadness in their eyes. As we have souls so do animals, everything has a purpose and a place here. Animals protect us and we put them down when we don’t need them or because they don’t look cute? Would you like to be put down because you become “Useless”. They understand when you are sad, happy, and mad and try to cheer you up. They could become your companions and many of you have pets don’t you? ( I was rather surprised how well I said this). I knew instantly I found my drive back.
The people were rather moved and asked how can we do this? We could start in California start building sanctuaries in major cities in where animals are rescued and brought there to be taken care off and adopted. They should be seen as perfect and equal to any other animal regardless of how they are. We will start in Los Angeles, San Diego, San Fransisco and if there no room in the cities we could make them in neighboring cities or counties. We would save millions and the expenditure could be a non-profit. Then see the success rate and expand to other 49 States and lead by example and have families adopt the animals. We have to see animals as equal as human beings and not mistreat them or see them for less. I got a round of applause and three ideas are always chosen for as long as I have been here. My idea was picked and the project will be under way by June.
Later I was eating and a homeless individual started talking to me before I sat down. I asked him to sit with me and he appreciated it. I could see he was hungry so I gave him half my food, he told me I am a good friend. I laughed and told him thanks. We had a short talk and I asked him for his wisdom in life? He told me ” Treat everyone as equal regardless of skin, religion, or how they look, we are all the same”. I smiled and felt this humbleness of him and I asked him if enjoyed the food. He answered off course there not that many nice people in the world, I smiled and said you just have to open your eyes a little more. (Laughter from both of us).
Regardless of who you are man, women, in between, ethnicity, color we shouldn’t discriminate. You would be surprised what you could learn from other people, at the end we work better when we actually work together regardless of who you are. It’s rather ignorant to put someone down because they are a certain way. Open your eyes a little more and you will see better.