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Therapist

A part of the process of becoming a sex therapist is to actually speak to a therapist before you graduate. Even though I won’t graduate soon I decided to speak to one to understand why I associate sexuality and relationships together. I have noticed that a way to connect with someone deeply I must have intercourse with the individual. I figured this is normal but i might put too much emphasis on intercourse.

Speaking to a therapist many individuals believe you must have a mental illness. The truth is the opposite is having someone who has no association with you see you objectively and give you feedback. You could be entirely honest because you have no association with the person across you and it helps the other person give you concrete advice or assessment.

Speaking to this individual we regressed to my childhood. I figured that my early years in having intercourse made my brain wire itself in the form of associating intimacy with intercourse. Which the individual suggested it isn’t a bad thing but on extreme levels it could be harmful to any form of relationship. regressing more into many different relationships we notice many highly sexual relationships which conditioned me and reinforced beliefs in my subconscious.

The interesting aspect of this was if I desire a monogamous relationship many beliefs I have had for thirteen years would have to alter and change. This is also a problem in the dating world of seduction. Many individuals are sold on dating many women but aren’t seeing the side effects of beliefs you have to adopt to continue such a lifestyle. Which I have spoken to my mentor on this issue and many individuals have notice that within the industry.

This is the bad aspect of living this lifestyle when you desire change. it isn’t simple and requires time. There is a big difference in dating one individual and dating multiple individuals, I am speaking to the people who have been with over twenty individuals or over three digits. If a male is reading this I do recommend getting experience but just know what is the end goal and have a passion which will fuel you’re life.

 

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Medicine

I speak to the individuals who earnestly enjoy the pleasures of the body and mind. Just be aware that this are just words and not how I actually feel. It just enjoyable and poetic writing in this sense in my perspective.

When I feel you I lay helpless as a child observing his goddess. The way you move hypnoticly seduces my senses. I marvel while you undress slowly leaving me breathless. Almost tied to the chair my muscles tense knowing the effect you have on me. You give me the medicine I seek out. Without having this medicine I become desperate for my cure. There isn’t a medicine that could cure me but the one you give me. My mind can’t simulate this anymore. All I know is I feel you. Take your time undressing because I don’t share my goddess. The moon will be testimony of our endless trysts.

Pulling you close to my heart I felt an urgency to venture into a blissful experience. Feeling the depth of your desire made me lose myself. We explore our depth. Your eyes express wonderment and love. Ravishing nights you leave exhausted feeling the harden grasp I hold on your neck. Biting the perfect spheres that nature has given you. Lavish lips, perfect mouth to ravish every part of me. Relentless in your love you ask for more. You say you can’t take it but I seek more. Deriving from a sense of pleasure we search for a meaningful quest. We venture farther like never before. Sweat drips from our bodies as we feel one another to our souls. I lift you to heaven and guide you to the darkest places tying you to my desires. Letting yourself go I bring you back knowing thee will be safe. Are wet lips kissing one another devouring are very nature. Gripping her neck she moans into the night.

Breaking Point Release – Saturday Free

Ebook – Author Forewords

I apologize for my absence and the delay on the free Erotica ebook. I wasn’t certain if I wanted individuals to know about my own sexual life which delayed me publishing the ebook world wide. Nonetheless individuals kept asking when was the due date. This saturday I’ll make certain it is free which you could get it here.

I appreciate the help from the graphic designer which I believe did a great job. The two editors which corrected my bad english grammar. The people who kept asking me and has shown interest on what actually happens behind the scenes.

About The Book

If you follow my blog or know me in  person you would understand. This isn’t in any way boasting about my sexual life. I love intercourse but I respect the women who spend precious moments and reveal their intimate selves which few get to see.  believe when you get to see the deeper aspects of individuals. It is something  precious that I consider an honor to see,feel, and experience. The book is written in consensus about who I wrote about.

The first story is written about a women who change my perspective that has enduring effects till this day. Moments, memories, and intimate conversations that I have grown fond of remembering. Truthfully the book was inspired by her when we first started to speak. She read my simple writings and corrected them but her motivational words is what started the book before I made her aware it was about her. Energetic, open-minded, ambitious, very social, kind, caring, understanding, emotional at times, conservative, and very open-hearted. I believe what I miss the most is communicating with her.  Coming from how I use to live my life; honestly she will hold a special spot in my mind that I will cherish.

Second story is about two women who I met because of a friend from middle school. My friend always encourage me to date the younger friend which was his sister friend. Both actually encourage this all thru middle school till I was an adult. When I became an adult I stop seeing my old friend and didn’t hear from him till the younger girl was becoming 18. Having a good relationship with all three it was a happy reunion.  Both women are energetic and very alluring in their own right. I always cared for them and tried to look out for them when possible. The younger girl had always had a crush on me which became relevant during the night at the party. Finding out the older friend found me enticing it turn into a night which I won’t forget.

Last words. I believe this will be the only book I will write. Sexuality is great and I dearly hope you are enjoying yourself.

Los Infieles (The Affair)-2

Seconds hours so many days, you know what you want but how much can you wait? Every moment lasts forever..what if you lost your way. What if your chances are already gone? I started believing I could be wrong, but you gave me one good reason… to fight and not walk away.

If every step you take is climbing a mountain, tired of fighting, but you know it within yourself to not give up. We all have those moment where you almost thought you quit. Dig deeper, push and break every rule because what you desire is worth every mountain.

Give it all up I will give you a hand when you fall. There aren’t no boundaries; I see your insecurities, the depth of your yearning soul, basking in emotional turmoil. The hand is there; look upon the far skies to the sun radiating waiting for you.

As I first laid eyes on you I seen the potential; hold on tightly for the ride. Hypnotized by who you are a passion ruptured between us. Stroke time very well because it could be your last. Smile at every venture as the adventure last as long as you jump. No point not to follow the earnest heart seeking more.

It is amazing as the lures to take it all off. Are you ready to endure the task at hand? You sought what you deeply yearn for, why repeat and sleep with the enemy. If it was a sinful act it felt amazing without any remorse. 

They wouldn’t understand if we explained. Take it off as we aspire to wake up in the morning with one another. Be careful not to let the neighbors know, are partners, let are secret stay in the hotel. Take your time the sensual feeling you feel is the taboo of the act we are doing, aren’t we bad. 

Let this temptation fill your heart as we are devilish. Love flow as water moves smoothly; whisper your ideas as we ravish are souls. Let your eyes radiate as a smile unfolds. Tell him the lies you tell him which you undress slowly maneveruing yourself slowly into my embrace; if we commit is because we venture towards bliss.

We shall be forgiven if this sinful, how can it feel so great? Whisper my name, cry out of joy, don’t say anything. Remember euphoria moment which we both were sentence to hell? Fuck it. Let’s love one another in secret; blossom in your delight as we became the narcotic which we got addicted too. 

I’ll take the time too caress the delicacy of your skin. Be my aphrodisiac as I ravish the intensity of this depth yearning; take your time undressing as I admire the exquisiteness you are. The heart calls upon forth to feel the frenzy of your love. I desire to wake up with such excstatic sensation you felt from earnest determination. Naughty and nasty, heavy breathing, we are doing this; we are reminded. Too express this yearning with words doesn’t come close to the raw unison are bodies feel. 
– Dedicated too the women I wrote about in Sexual Affair, we got together and collaborated with her story and my erotica writing. 

             SONGS THAT INSPIRE

No Boundaries 
Los Infieles

The Affair 

Meeting a rather aluring women who name would be Amanda to conceal her identity told me a rather interesting story. Amanda is 37 years old now in her second marriage. She married at the age of 26 with her boyfriend who she been with six years, married for eight and divorced at 35. With her permission she wanted me to write about this in a poetic sense which might be difficult but with her help she aided me to possibly help other women who might be in the same situation. 

During lonely nights my heart waits patiently to see if you stir an eye towards me. The abyss seeing your self sink into alcohol, smoking, no sense of direction has led me endlessly questioning the nature about us. As the sun rises so shall the moon rise, as the birds chirp, so shall my endless nights of despair cringe me to be my utter worst nemesis. The thought of you seeking pleasure of my body has me feeling numb. 

I have betrayed the foundation I have built to build heaven instead of purgatory. His intensity driving my soul to flourish as he deliberaltely punishes my body as I ache for his wrath of desire I earnestly seek. Boundaries once I never would cross have been ripped apart Under his careful gaze. His eyes pierce to my very soul as he guides me to bliss which I have not felt for years. The wrath of his passion I soak up desperately has become a narcotic which I grew addicted to.

I fought to not fall, he picked me up as I left solidto to embrace an ache which couldn’t be fulfilled with you. As his words pierce my heart, the persistence in his eyes determined to fufill his heart felt desires; I know I am his Aphrodite which he admires. The thrill to be happy once again is an aphrodisiac which he utterly is committed to be. 

Lonely nights have been replaced with his presence. His careful intense gaze drives me to madness without a single word. I loved you once; the flame extinguished. On the other side my inner goddess was awaken; as I let out my bliss every single night into the air. The audacity, confidence, has me mersmrised as I am pushed to scream of extradionary euphoria. 
Amanda is speaking about her ex-husband and her present husband. The difference in how she felt internally during her first marriage and her present one. She was involved in affair before divorcing her husband at the time; rather felt guilty she has learned to see it as a blessing is disguise. Not necessarily saying to be unfaithful, but at times certain individuals enter are lives for particular reasons. 

History Of The Vibrator

We understand that women sexuality is rather misunderstood also has been apparently misguided for centuries. Until recently masturbation was considered wrong or an unhealthful act for women to reach bliss. Let’s dive a little into how women orgasms has been misunderstood as well as the medical industry this was profitable.

Let’s look into how women orgasms was an extra income for physicians. “Western medicine, described a medical treatment for a complaint that is no longer defined as a disease but that from at the least the fourth century B.C until the American Psychiatric Association dropped the term in 1952, was known as mainly as hysteria. This purported disease and its sister ailments displayed a symptomatology consistent with the normal functioning of female sexuality, for which relief, not surprisingly, was obtained through orgasm, either through intercourse in the marriage bed or by means of massage on the physician’s table.” Essentially due to the fact that most women can’t just orgasm thru penetration alone they required stimulation on the clitoris which is how the vibrator and other instruments were made to help physicians help women dilemma of being unsatisfied.

The vibrator to help with women hysteria (Sexuality) to help reach orgasm. “When the vibrator emerged as an electromechanical medical instrument at the end of the nineteenth century, it evolved from previous massage technologies in response to demand from physicians for more rapid and efficient physical therapies particularly for hysteria. Massage to orgasm of female patients was a staple of medical practice among some(But certainly not all) Western physicians from the time of Hippocrates until the 1920s, and mechanized this task significantly increased the number of patients a doctor could treat in a working day.”  Yes essentially vibrators were primarily made to help women achieve orgasm with the help of doctors.

Another interesting is how not being able to achieve orgasm for women was considered an illness. “Because the androcentric model of sexuality was thought necessary to the pro-natal and patriarchal institution of marriage and had been defended and justified by leaders of the western medical establishment in all centuries at least since the time of Hippocrates, marriage did not always “cure” the “disease” represented by the ordinary and uncomfortably persistent functioning of women sexuality outside the dominant sexual paradigm. This relegated the task of relieving the symptoms of female arousal to medical treatment, which defined female orgasm under clinical conditions as the crisis of an illness, the “hysterical paroxysm. In effect, doctors inherited the task of producing orgasm in women because it was a job nobody else wanted.” Not certain how an individual wouldn’t desire to help a partner reach bliss, rather sad how it is considered a job.

The main points is are how the vibrator came into the market; to cure a disease which was just having an orgasm to cure a women from ‘hysteria’. Also it makes me wonder if in the past till now how many individuals don’t pay attention to the clitoris which has thousands of nerves past superior to anything within the human body. Also how intercourse alone doesn’t necessarily mean women will have an all everlasting orgasm.

reference

Rachel P. Maines.(1999).The Technology Of Orgasm:University Press

Sexuality Pedistal

Take a little moment within your precious life to join me in this trip. Wether you are a mistress,single, in a relationship, open-relationship, friend with benefits, “friends”, sugar daddy, sugar mama, cheating, maybe seeing your e.x, or thinking about them, having fantasies, married, widow. Etc.

Imagine feeling the smooth texture of their skin. Mesmerized by the intoxicating smell of them. Words don’t describe or come close to the cosmic union that intensifies with seconds that past. Lips engulfing both of us within a bubble of passion and heat as a marathon of sweat drips from the exhaustion of are bodies; movements that don’t know the limitations of the human body. Depth of this carnal feeling isn’t something that time erases, but harnesses the yearning to a greater degree. Roughness as your body explodes from the hunger which I desperately have inhibit. Releasing desire which has you addicted to me; it’s an intoxication which only you can cure with the medicine are earnestly seek. I will be the doctor as you are my patient, I’ll prescribe the right prescription. 

Regardless of who you are (Women,Male, in- between) enjoy your sexuality. With yourself or the luxury of enjoying someone else. 

                               

Expanded Orgasm – 2

I suggest to refer to the first post for instructions on how to follow the “Breath of Fire”. Be aware that as an individual always keep expanding in every aspect of one own life; you never stop learning and expanding.

The Breathe Of Fire

“The breath of fire is a Kundalini yoga technique. It is a powerfully energizing breath that gets the little neurons in your brain humming as it clears your lungs and cleanses your blood. The breath of fire is aptly named. I usually feel a lot of heat spreading out from the center of my body when I do this breath. This rapid, continuous breath is done entirely through the nose. It can be done in any position, but it’s best learned standing or sitting up with a straight spine. The emphasis of this breath is on the exhale.” I personally enjoy this breath more than the others; while jogging this could really wake you up.

  1. “Exhale. As you exhale, push the air out by rapidly pulling your navel to your spine.”
  2. “To inhale, simply release your navel outward. The breath fills your lungs automatically.”
  3. Put your hand on your diaphragm to focus your attention there and to feel the power of this breathe.”
  4. “Begin with one breath every two seconds; work up to one or two breaths per second.”

Requires a little practice, but I could honestly say it is worth it. The only conflicting part is to consciously do it while having intercourse.

The Heart Breath

  1. “Yawn. Feel how the yawn opens the back of your throat and stretches out your whole mouth and face? That’s the feeling of the openness you want when you do the heart breath.”
  2. “Breath. Let your mouth fall open slightly. Relax your jaw and face, open the back of your throat, and breath in through your mouth, gently but fully.”
  3. “Exhale. Don’t push the breath out; just let it fall out with a gentle little sigh,ahh.”
  4. “Take in a much air as you can, as effortlessly as you can, then let it go.”

Practice the breath till you get remember them and incorporate them into intercourse or masturbation and feel the difference. Remember it does not have to be perfect; just jump in and do it.

reference

Carrellas, Barbara. Urban Tantra: Sacred Sex for the Twenty-first Century. Celestial Arts, 2007

Expanded Orgasm

As a man and a women you could expand your orgasms much more than you are experiencing right now. As I am aware the strongest orgasms have been when I alter my breathing; teaching this to a partner could be more complex but with patience and guidance it could be very powerful. This is taught in Tantra as well in Kama Sutra it just requires conscious focus on breathing thru the nose or the mouth and depending when you use it the effects will vary. There is four type of breaths which I will separate into two posts so in essence two here and two in the next one.

“Breathe through your mouth while you are learning each breath (except for the breath of fire, which is always done through the nose). When you become familiar with the breathes, you can experiment with nose versus mouth breathing.”

The Bottom Breathing

Practice for five to ten minutes

“Bottom breathing is a gentle, easy way to calm you down and open up your senses. It’s the ideal breath to use when you want to move out of the busy or stressful state of doing into the easy, relaxed awareness of being.”

  1. “Sit on the floor with your legs crossed (or on a hardback chair with your feet flat on the floor) and your spine straight. With your hands, pull the fleshy part of your buttocks aside so that you are sitting on your sit bones. (once you learn the breath you can do it in any position.)
  2. “Begin by exhaling all the air out of your lungs.”
  3. “Then, as you inhale, very gently push out on the anal sphincter. Imagine that your anus can “Kiss” the floor or the seat of the chair.”
  4. “On the exhale, don’t do anything. Don’t contract your anus, don’t hold it; don’t push. Do nothing just let it go.

Keep repeating and you will start to feel your body start tingling. This isn’t easy and requires practice as with anything else. One way to implement this while having intercourse or receiving oral is to start breathing into your mouth relaxed; then let go. Reaching orgasm will require more time but the explosive feeling is worth the wait. Be aware that orgasm is a state of mind and feeling while ejaculation is the release of a fluid.

The Circular Breathe

“The essence of the circular breath is breathing in a continuous flow, with no break or pause between the inhale and the exhale. The inhale flows effortlessly into the exhale, which flows seamlessly into the next inhale. You can do this breath sitting, standing, or lying down.” You could imagine this breathe as when you are jogging and breathing into and out of your mouth. As well when intercourse is rough and animatistic is thru the mouth that vocal and breathing is done.

  1. “Breathe gently through your mouth, keeping your jaw relaxed and your lips slightly parted.”
  2. “Feel the back of your throat open and relax. Do not force or push the breath. The inhale will require a bit more effort than the exhale, which should just gently fall out.”
  3. “Imagine your breath making a complete unbroken circle.”

” This breathe is particularly useful for circulating erotic energy around your own body and between yourself and your partners. It builds and moves energy, and it intensifies feelings both emotional and physical”.

For men who desire to not ejaculate which is releasing semen you could consciously breathe thru your nose slowly. Inhale then relax and exhale; this will slow everything down and its practiced while meditating. Which will lower your arousal level, but you will be able to have self-control while being able to sensuously enjoy the person you are with for longer periods of time.

reference

Carrellas, Barbara. Urban Tantra: Sacred Sex for the Twenty-first Century. Celestial Arts, 2007

Tempted Soul

Little short passages I wrote that are going to be added at the end of the book but not as stories. After this I will continue to write about intercourse and relationships again.

As I lay awake at nights contemplating the feelings in which my heart aches at night and body tenses as I remember your scent. The feeling of our bodies touching one another as we collide in a heat of passion as your ecstasy fuels my feeling of desire deepen to new depth that my soul didn’t know. The rapture of this feeling is deep that even now as time has passed I still feel you. The soft gentles caresses that I felt when indulging in pleasures that my body has not felt since I have last laid eyes on you. A smile that captivated my senses and other feelings which soared higher than the sun itself. This feelings of agony and pleasure mix with a hint of compassion reminds me of nights when you laid in my embrace as you felt happy and safe and every problem you had just melted as you lay in my presence. As I write this I remember as warm water brought are two heated bodies together as we soared the ladder of blissful climax in which we intertwined till we couldn’t physically do anymore. As are souls ached for more are bodies responded with the sweet guidance that only the heart will let us feel. As I sit here on this beach hearing the waves crash and a soft breeze pushing against my warm body; I only desire to know what your warm body would feel against mine.

As I contemplate this memories I feel a turmoil unfold within me. Memories that wash over me as this feelings are ready to rupture into a million pieces. I tend to listen as the winds brought forward your words. They landed gently onto my soul; promises that weren’t kept. Ideas that I contemplated as you brought a gift bearing more than I ever foretold. Looking into your eyes I seen a soul that yearn for more. Not mistakenly your eyes watered as I disappeared unto the unknown. As I came back with resilience your eyes gleamed with hope; brought bearing a gift which you unwrapped with a tempted soul.

Writing this very late I can’t help wonder about you. My heart and soul yearn to know what is like to be in heaven again with you. Remembering as once you where mine and only mine. Your tender embraces feeling the roughness of my desire as we sychronize into one rhythm. Hearing your moans echo agaist the wall driving me to lose all control and sense and witness the beauty of a women laying underneath me. My admiration for you has no bounds; my desire is deep; my love knows no bounds; my body aches to indulge in pleasure. As are bodies collide and laughter flows into time. Memories left in the sand which only time will remove. Nonetheless only eternity will remember the passion that we share and time can’t completely destroy.